My Heart-Paramore

A new adventure is about to begin in my life, and as excited as I act on the outside, on the inside, I'm more terrified then ever. This is going to be an experience of a life-time, and I wont let a case of nerves stop me from doing this, but I wish someone would just say to me " Devann, You can be scared, its okay." I am surrounded by friends and family who are supporting me, but in order for me to take this big step, I have to take off my training wheels, and finally enter the real world.

I can't keep relying on my friends and family to bail me out in a difficult situation, because for the next 6 months, I will truly be alone, without my family and friends. I will make new ones I'm sure, but it wont be the same. It seems that I'm putting off getting packed and ready, because I still don't believe I am leaving in 12 days. It all seems so surreal. Thinking about the next few days I get butterflies in my stomach, and I feel nervous about doing this. All these questions run through my head on a daily basis
"What if I don't like it?"
"Do they have stuff I need there?"
"How do I communicate with people when I dont know spanish?"
"6 months is a really long time..."

But I guess this is an experience not only to be scared, but to realize there are bigger problems in the world, like world hunger, and homelessness, which im sure I will get to have a first-hand glance at.

So if everyone who reads this, just send me little "good luck" wishes every now and then, I would love nothing more:)

Thanks for reading so far everyone <3